Day 35, Aug 3, Salida, CO.
My ride today was back on the Elliptigo rather than riding the road bike on a trainer like the last couple of days. I was testing out the recent repair work. I had the tires, brake pads, chain, and load wheels on the Elliptigo replaced yesterday. Including my pre-crossing training, the components all had about 2200 miles on them with that same amount estimated to go.
The trailer needed some maintenance/repair work and what we can do, such as cabinet latch repair, has been done to the extent we are able. Duct tape has temporarily solved a lost hose cap.
The truck needs some minor parts replaced, but they have not yet arrived to the dealership here even though they were ordered 6 weeks ago. We will likely have to wait until early Oct upon our return.
We came home to a non-functioning garage door, and that is scheduled to be looked at in a couple of days.
There were a few videoing camera glitches that need attention, but I haven’t gotten to them yet.
And I am in a of repair time myself, physically, mentally, emotionally.
Long ago I thought it was only things that wear out, that people have agency, can be disciplined, can persevere, can choose not to break. People shouldn’t. That isn’t true, people wear out too. We need maintenance, repair, rest and recovery time too. I was later than most to that understanding. Now I embrace it.
I am symbolizing the process of recovery with this journey and contend that regardless of the difficulties at times, the recovery journey is harder. And yet here I am with the freedom and opportunity to take several days off from my crossing, while those in recovery do not get a day off. They must remain vigilant every day. They have to repair the Elliptigo, trailer, house, and camera all while continuing their crossing. Is there a place where you, like I did and can still do, hold others to an “unbreakable” standard? Is there an area of your life that you hold yourself to that standard?
Addiction is a brain disease.
It disables decision-making.
It is treatable.
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